I miss it so much and I think about it almost every day. Either something I see, or smell, or hear, reminds me of my childhood, and it makes me so sad. Sometimes I get so upset that I just sit down and cry about it. I’m probably just being way to sensitive and nostalgic, but it really upsets me that much. But there’s something about seeing my christmas tree decorated with generic red and gold ornaments with hardly any gifts under it that pulls me back into my childhood when I cared about decorating and how many gifts I had under the tree. I just don’t care anymore, and not caring makes me sad. I love my life right now, college is awesome, I have my first boyfriend, I have friends, but my childhood was just so amazing, I wish I could go back. I also wish I cared about a lot of things I don’t care about anymore.